|
Monday, April 30, 2007
musicandlyricsWhere did I go wrong, I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitterness And I would have stayed up with you all night Had I known how to save a life - "How to save a life" by The Fray Watch the mtv. It touched me. Slowly, gently, night unfurls its splendor, Grasp it, sense it, tremulous and tender, Turn your face away from the garish light of day Turn your thoughts away from cold, unfeeling light And listen to the music of the night - Music of the Night This verse sums up what the whole "Phantom of the Opera" musical was about. $147 worth of mind-boggling theatrics. I think it was a very well done show in terms of the extravagent props and special effects, but then again, it's my first experience in a theatre so I could be wrong. That you're not not not gonna get any better You won't won't won't you won't get rid of me never Like it or not, even though she's a lot like me We're not the same And yeah yeah yeah I'm alot to handle You don't know trouble, I'm a hell of a scandal Me, I'm a scene, I'm a drama queen I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen - "The best damn thing" by Avril Lavigne Pop goes the weasel. "And yea. Don't let your doubts stop you. If it's meant to be, it's meant to be."
10:20 PM
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Little Spunk.Avril Lavigne's new CD grows on me. I love the way the album sounds. Yes, even with incensely irritating claps (sometimes), and cheerleading-like bits, plus somewhat dubious rapping/chanting, MOI, a 19-year-old ADULT would still like to raise my hand and say "Alright, this album RAWKS. " You see, I've learnt that, when you love someone for their sound, you don't give a shit to what others say. You may, at some point think, oh no! My friends are right! She's lost it! You begin to doubt the artiste for his/her ability. BUT THEN, when you yourself put your ears together and listen closely, you know you still love her as an artiste, and you don't give a damn to outsiders. Yeap. Avril Lavigne IS still my favourite artiste. (and thank you apple, for giving me the album. Lots of love) And so what's been going on in my life is the main concern, so that my future self can go back to the archives and read this entry, roll her eyes and think back about the good ol' days which seem not very "good" now, but whatever. yes. this. er... Okay, went out with Shaz on thursday, then to gym. Funny how that dry wit of hers is still lingering at the corner of her mouth, ready to pounce on any subject. Some things don't change even though they've been to America and back, huh? Gym afterward with teammates. One word: Ache. Chronicling my day is quite boring right? So I shall choose one very exciting event. MANCHESTER UNITED 4 - 2 EVERTON Harharharharharharhar. I watched the match in my grandma's house. Man U was losing 2-0, with a goal right after half-time. And chealsea was leading Bolton 2-1. So you can imagine the ants swirling in my pants while I was watching the match. But along came Ronaldo, who dutifully cut the defense and the rest is history. Chris Eagles, an unknown, scored the4th goal which was a beauty. He had no defenders, kept his cool, and rounded the ball into the right side of the net with the goalkeeper nowhere near it. Fantastic. So I can say, Manchester United will win the Premiership title. AND THE TREBLE too.
12:00 AM
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Dropped Shopping.So there we were, all 6 of us, zipping through boutiques after boutiques after boutiques. Apple, Cathy, Fizzah, Fiona, Clara and me. The same people who had to endure a gruelling 5/6 papers period where life was a pressure cooker. So, to celebrate our success (or failure, for some papers like "f***ing tormenting" french), we went on a misson to shop. Target: Vivocity. And seriously, Vivocity really houses all the essential boutiques. There's topshop, Mango, Forever 21, River Island, Zara, Pull and Bear. It's like EVERYTHING smack right in between each other. So we went into one, then another one, then another until you forget where the hell you were cos all you see are clothes, clothes and more clothes. Then there were times where I picked out tops, and they go "Blah. Deanna, that's too you! We need to find something more exciting for you!" And there were times where I tried on clothes that I never thought I would try, but I looked quite okay in them. And there were times where I thought, hey, shopping's actually interesting! But there were sacrifices... like having to part with dough that was saved by not having extra meals just for fun. And there were times where my phone vibrates and hey-- there's GWENNIE excitedly telling me Roslyn (other half of Girls Out Loud) is in her school giving a talk and she's damn cool. And there were times where I look at my flabby fats and hope for Basketball training so I can jump high again. This shopping adventure ended with a nice, slow conversation in Pacific Coffee Co. Final purchases for the day adds up to $130. So, yes. I declare that I have to work like hell for the next few weeks to earn back this money. Still have Korean trip + thailand waiting. I believe this holiday is gonna be the best ever. And you ain't gonna burst my bubble.
12:43 AM
Sunday, April 22, 2007
these 3 damn words.Exploration of love, men and women were amongst the things done on a little bench during the course of these few days. It seems that the overly used and under-appreciated word "love" is just so complicated. (Yes, I'm quoting Avril Lavigne's first single just cos I can. Nngh) So complicated that it takes abstract analogies and heartwrenching stories to paint a picture, but the picture is still not qualified to be a representative of the love (or lack thereof). At some point, there is bound to be a friend out there who is fresh free falling into love. On the other end of the spectrum, there'll be one who is fresh falling out of love. And then, at other points, there will be people struggling to find where they stand, whether they are one together, of just two who can complement each other. Struggling- That's seriously an understatement.
11:18 PM
 What goes around comes around. Yes, typical phrase. BUT it is true. For sending her home if I am able to, Apple gave me Avril Lavigne's new album! Thank you, Apple! Now guys, spread the goodwill around.
11:15 PM
So, I believe I was off the radar for a few days (one entire week!). But of course, I was never that popular. Cue self depreciating *awkward* laughter. As I've said in my previous entry, I went all the way to my school to study for my exams. Yar. Can hear all the "siao ah?" comments uttered by the only 5 people who read my blog. What kept me staying was the effectiveness of the studying. Even though there were momentary lapses (which was filled with inane gossiping), I could still feel my brain throbbing with the dripping dare-I-say wonderful knowledge of the Singapore Society. Which brings me to a point. Did you know that the singapore's educational system was designed based on the economy? So if we need intensive labour for a certain industry, the educational system will make necessary arrangements for that industry. Another criteria that the system was based on was how well Singaporeans can fight and survive. I always thought education was much more than all these. Seem that these days, all the people think alike. Something like a factory churning out like-minded intelligent chips. It's boring to think alike! Furthermore, it is bad to know that the education system is a major factor in contributing the the class inequality in Singapore. When I read about it, it was so true! But of course, there are people who fight against the odds and rise to the occassion, and it is very inspiring to hear of such stories from my very own schoolmates who fight their way to the top through grit and resilence. People like Naz and Apple, I take my hats off them! Oh no! I think I've immersed myself too much in my exams. Sort of living in another world. Using Eveline's analogy of the NTU space as a bubble, and my off-the-rack frequency, the "aNTI-YOU bubble" really can trap all kinds of stuff. People, places and even dirt and "ticketing" mishaps. Now, till the sun goes down on my last paper which falls on tuesday, I shall continue to bury myself in the complicated world of Singapore Politics and more.
12:28 AM
Monday, April 16, 2007
I'm so hardworking.For today and the next 8 days I will be too. But as Apple say, 9 days of studying is worthwhile if you compare it to doing nothing on normal semester days. I'm so hardworking in terms of studying. AND in terms of taking the MRT from Bishan to Boon Lay, then taking 179 to WKWSCI and finally after 1h 30mins, sit down at the benches and study. I say it's hardworking, but I bet some of you are thinking, stupid la. But the system that we've devised to keep us from NOT studying is working. So there. And SHAZZANA SHAHAR called me in the evening, just to speak with a slow drawl, "hellooo, is this Deanna? I'm a very old friend of yours by the name of Shazzana Shahar." Shaz is back from the States! This is so exciting. But exams are in the way. Dammit. Funny things do happen, don't they? Even when you think you think too much, you may not have thought too much in the first place. You wonder. (these cryptic words are in relation to my fresh parking summon because I refused to put any parking coupon on a sunday as I didn't know it was Urban Redevelopment Authority's property and they charge parking every single day. YEs I know, inhuman beasts. ) Is it, then, any wonder that I'm gonna take the train again all the way to Boon Lay tomorrow?
12:36 AM
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Hook, line, sTinker!I just have this sudden urge to blog, and write down every feeling, every thought, and everything that comes to mind. But of course, I won't write down everything, because I'm just too plain lazy. Anyway, some guy that I had this major crush looong looong ago on has changed his status on Friendster to "married". Made me quite sad for a while, but got over it in 5 breathes of fresh air. Can't stand how cute he still is though. Everyone say "Awww..." So, today. Saturday. Spent 3 quarters of the day chit chatting with applicants who wants to come into my school and had their interviews. I wore a tag that said "student ambassodor", even though I felt more like a "guardian of the benches" since I was loitering around the benches most of the time. Benches: In the WeeKimWee School of Comm and Info, the benches is where pratically everyone hangs out when they wanna gossip, chit chat, or psuedo-study (The ones who actually WANTS to study goes into the library). Very amazing that many dead wooden tables can translate into a happening place. Such a cool name also. "The Benches". It'd be horrible if the place is called "The tables and the chairs" la. I went around, said "Hi, I'm blahblahblah and my job for the day is to chit chat with you." It's good to get back to heaven because after you hear how most of them wants to come in here, you feel damn privilaged to be already there. Cue last year's interview flashbacks. Shudders. I think can tell how much I lurve this school right? Coming back to chitchat with prospective freshies even though major exams are happening next week. I did manage to study some stuff, because I stayed back with Apple and Pang Sern Yong just to study. However, half the time we had to control our desire to start talking about the non-acedamic stuff. Torturous, but we devised a system to work around it. Hehe. Studious, studious me.
11:55 PM
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Hear the sound of the falling rain, coming down like an Armagaddon flame.Hear ye, hear ye. cs108 has finished! No more MacLab sessions where i tinkle with FinalCut Express, Photoshop, and try to answer Fizza's ever-so-chim questions with a "urm... I think you should..... ask Naz, hehe". Even though I had to stay back till 10pm, endure a certain stupid computer voice saying "Please save your work as the computer is programmed to shut down at ten" every ten miliseconds, stare at the cold white ceiling and the state-of-the-art apple computers in the lab while rendering the work, I guess I would miss this 108 because of all the fun inside the Maclab. Funny how a whitewashed, seemingly cold and unfriendly teeny almost- claustraphobic corner can be so enjoyable. And of course, credits to the teammates! And the people who happened to be there to do their project but i still shout for them anyway in desperation to HELP- hello deanna my darling sweetcakes. KISS ME!!!! hahaha. i did not just write that. deanna made me do it. :P ok gotta go. ciao -and that's ros, who ambushed me at some bench to write this. And she has as of yesterday, crossed the 2nd decade of her life to be 20 years old. Okay. And I stayed over at Charlene's hall last night just to practise French oral, in the hopes of not saying "Je ne sais pas" to each question the examiner ask. Which worked, kinda. Except for answering the examiner "Quart habitants a Singapour" (which means Singapore's population is only 4) and making her SHOCKED, the whole thing went okay. I think it was the handshake before the exam which made it all better, right Sivalingam? (And of course being the last group to go for Oral had its quirks too) Alrighty. Here's a link I'll like everyone to go. www.ntu.edu.sg/home2006/MUHA0068 This is what my group and I have been slogging on, with the website and the film. Even though it wasn't as fantastic as say, Shi xiong's/Junjie/Zac/Chee Harn's (Theirs can take everyone's breathe away. And is it just me or is it a coincidence they are all guys? Hmm.), at least my group's film and website stayed faithful to its initial aim- that is, to entertain. Exams are next week. Has been a tough ride, but this semester is coming to a close. 1 year flying past just like that. I'm going to be a Year 2 student in this Anti-You school now. My motto for this semester was "We should start simple, and end with no regrets." I guess I can safely say, yes, no regrets. Etudie! Etudie! (French for Study!Study!)
10:04 AM
Monday, April 09, 2007
Happy 53rd birthday, papa!Had impromptu steamboat dinner tonight to celebrate the 53rd birthday of my dad. Told him he should have a great year because 5+3= 8. Woohoo! Lucky number. Went down to the travel agency on Saturday to finish up everything that is to be done for the trip to Korea, and got ourselves a Thailand trip too! So guys, I'm leaving on a jet plane (read: jet plane, not jetstar plane.. super grateful and thankful for that) on 18th June to Seoul. Never been there before, and only looked at the city through the countless Korean drama series. Wonder if it is accurate, hmm... And I'll flip if yet another person ask me to buy kimchi back from Korea. Such an imaginative gift. And can you imagine how I'll smell throughout the whole journey? The horrors! (Don't worry, I'll get a more fantastic gift, like lovely fans or chopsticks to stick into your hair!) But anyway, BIG thank you to Char for recommending me this travel agent whose just like the auntie next door. Next up, studying for studying's sake.
10:14 PM
Friday, April 06, 2007
totally french.C'est un ordinateur. Il n y pa Paques dimanche. J'adore numero cinqt. Tre bièn! Je parle Anglaise et Francaisé. Je nee en Decembre. Je ne pas mariè. Un deux trios quart cinqt six sept huit neuf dix. Musicienne? Non. Jouer de basket. Merci beaucoup.
9:38 PM
 I would love to say that I did this above file all by myself. But I didn't la. I used photoshop My tutor in CS108 showed us a website that has so many lovely free brushes for photoshop, and I downloaded this one with the "foliage brushes"which is the flowery images. Only goes to show that MY School is DAMN cool!
4:08 PM
Monday, April 02, 2007
I'm in a lecture with 28 other people. Pretending to type notes when I'm typing this. I'm just bored lah. Somehow, I'm just happy that the last week has been over. Things that shouldn't be said, shouldn't be done was said and done. What do I have to say about that? Nothing. I offer no explanations, no excuses, no nothing. But I understood and I reflected. What I want to be is someone who is good. Not godly, not goody-two-shoes, but just good enough to get myself a place in heaven (which is still a doubt anyway). That would be enough. And it would be fantastic if someone along the way gets sprinkled with that little good as well. But let's face it. I'm an idealist. This world is realistic. We clash. And we clash good. It's been a good weekend on Sunday. Just singing ourselves silly at the cheapo K-ster. Then SQ came with her manly voice and ruined our April Fools' Day joke for her. Today was the last day of Felicia and my radio show in NTU. Lovewreck was our radio show, and I can still recall the first time we stepped into the studio, being so nervous and cold. It was a good ride, and being a deejay was a childhood fantasy come true. I should start listening to the lecturer, but he keeps swinging his keychain that he holds in his hand. Boring. Friend's on vacation in Hongkong and I'm here feeling draggy. Alright. Gonna go now.
4:47 PM
|
