Blast From the Shaz! (BAd pun) 

Char's Mind : Can. Your. Hand. Be. Any. More. Zau Teng!! 

A Statue of Two Girls- Depressed and in Delusion 

Shaz, Char and Me. If you think geography, we look like a valley. A nice valley. 

If I could, then I would turn back time... I'll go wherever you will go
- The Calling Wherever you Will go

"So, here's my holidays served to me on a platter". Oh I remember this very sentance I typed (as Aishah would say) Ions ago (don't ask me what ions means, I'm sure it isn't scientific). And now, let's just watch it smash into 2005 and evaporate away.

Yeap, holidays are going away. See that dark cloud looming? That's what the holidays evaporate into. It takes, with luck, 3months for the next holiday to fall from the sky. Yukkity-yuk. I just created something funny. Laugh with me.

Hah.

I'm still a failure at this humor stuff,eh?

Anyway, I recieved 2 Christmas Cards and 1 letter this holiday. One from Andrea, one from Gek Eng and one from Stephanie. Ooh, i gotta love them. How can I survive in this world without them? They write the sweetest things and from all my heart, THANK YOU!

(no, not you... them..!! )

And so, I am going to be a J2 student cum AOFL cum OGL(okay, they're actually the same) cum LTC member in say, 4days time. What a load!

But then, I'll miss the J2 bballers. Aw man... hey you guys! Better promise me you'll drop by the school! What am I talking about? I already miss them!

Lucky. This year taught me about seperation and adaptation. Since now I like to play mahjong at Gao Fei's house, I guess i'm alrite.

Yeah, next year, it's gonna be a blast!

Hopefully.

No, I shall not be paraniod. I shall be confident.

It's gonna be a blast!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No, too confident.

It's gonna be a blast.

Er.... too.... oh well... i'll just stick to the first one.

Golf is not for the faint-hearted.

This is what I learnt this Christmas Season. (Cue Ho ho hos and jolly Santas jumping in the background.)

Golf, at its ugliest, is boring. Which couch potato could stand staring at miles of green, and fixate his eyes on one tiny ball? 18 holes of boredom.

But then, golf, at its most beautiful is one hell of a game. You watch as every swing is made. You gasp when the ball hits the bunker( sand pit). You cheer when the ball hits the fairway, and you grimace when the ball rolls near to the hole, only to stop inches before the hole.

Most of all, you wait to see who will finally win the game.

Waiting is an important component of golf. For the first hole, this person may win, but on the second, his/her opponent may cancel out his win. And it goes on as golfers slug it out on the course. It is a game of grit to see who outlasts who. Kinda like Survivor( sans lying, cheating) huh?

My christmas, spent playing countless hours of XBOX golf, has found its meaning.

Today's Christmas Eve, but it doesn't feels like it. Maybe it's because I'll be at home with my family tonight.

I was supposed to do CIP at Orchard, and at least, there I will get to soak up the Christmas atmosphere.

The plan was, after my CIP, GaoFei, me and Yenling will go for Countdown. In my mind, I pictured a countdown as a group of people huddling around a clock, and when it hits 12 midnite, we go "Hohoho!!"

Oh well, Christmas is a holiday for family bonding, and I'm with my mum and family.

Family, no matter what, ranks higher than having fun.

No regrets.

I went out with Aishah and Shaz yesterday. It was so fun just sitting down and talking and talking and talking. We talked a lot. Of course it was fun, then we went around to walk.

Today, after training, the girls and I went to take neoprints. Haha, I pressed the wrong buttons and we wasted a neoprint. $8 wasted u know! Hee... sorry ah! After that went bowling.

Anyway,those of you whom i asked for an address, got my christmas cards? Nice?

i'm finally in the centre of attention... (BTW, those pics were taken in june) 

hehe... yong xiang( LTC camp instructor) and me had quite a scandalous past.. (wahaha... just kidding) 

sian-ing  

always the entertainer- LTCcamp 

the bbq that happened in june LTC 

my shadow's the only one who walks beside me
- Greenday Boulauvard of Broken Dreams

I learnt how to play pool already!!! Hah! I'm so happy! Went to play pool with Xiao Wei, Chang Rong, Justin Ong and Yong An. Steph came later. I had fun playing, but more shou with XW, Steph and Justin, so.... heh....

And the day before I hung out with GekEng, Andrea and SQ. I feel so lucky, i'm able to have close secondary friends and jc friends. I saw Grace, Gwen and Jasmine, they were like suan-ing me on my new shoes. Haha, always kena suan-ed by them lor. And Shaz! I was trying to catch Shaz eyes, but she just couldn't see me and I had to walk right up to her and tap her on the shoulder. Haha...

WE shouldn't take anything for granted. I learn that, if u wanna see ur frens, you gotta initiate it. So, I'm gonna have to find a day for the TOK KOK gang gathering.

okay, i'm not that sad today. I've got a present!!! Yay! Thank you Shi Qi, Gek Eng Andrea!! You guys are the best! I love my bottle!

what goes around comes around what goes up must come down
- Alicia Key's Karma

I shall describe what I did today.

I had training in the morning, whereby we ran 4rounds, did the 12sequence, ran "si zhe", practice, and practised formation. I really hope that the girls work hard, they have the potential.

After that, I went for Banner Painting. The banner is due next Monday, and Char and Yue Lin and Errol and Hlaing Soe was there already. They were done drawing the outline then when I arrived. I had to find the person to take paint and groundsheet. Doing that was already a task, I had to run here and there. After taking the paint and all that, then they started painting. While they paint, I didn't know what to do, and was quite tired. I didn't want to move my muscles. ( Yeah, I was lazy, and training was tiring too)

Being an OGl is no joke. As I walk along the school, I saw some people who came into the school, most probably to appeal in for next year. It was quite surreal, haha, I can't believe I've been in this school for almost a year now. And new people are coming in. I'm like, having Vigour flashbacks right now. The first day where I sat next to *ahem* Bianca, saw the OGL distributing badges ( thought it was chocalate and was so happy at first), spoil the badges ( 2of them). And hey! I'm doing the friggin' identities now. My OGl then, the one who looked damn cool and dark at first glance- Ena. I wonder how the first-years next year will see me. Will I be cool and dark in their eyes? ( yar, as if) Honestly, will I? Everytime I tell someone I'm in basketball, they're like, HUH? SERIOUS? DUN BLUFF! Heng I never tell them my post in basketball. (Haha. Self entertainment and self sarcasm and self pat on the back).'

As I was saying, banner painting. I was just there, painting the "splash" ( cos my group is HYDRO). I don't know why, but I just felt I was a very "do-nothing" member. You know, feeling small and not worthy to the group. The feeling of being small is no good. Quite sad. Everyone else were painting, then after i painted the splash, someone took my brush away and I did nothing. So I told them I would go home to get the flag because I left it at home.

And so I did. On the bus journey, I just thought and thought and thought. Does like, anyone actually care about me? I'm quite sad, I won't deny, that this year, I don't have any presents although I keep complaining to my friends about it, and I know for a fact that you can't ASK for presents. It will seem that you are self-centred. But, then, what if maybe I am? So far, I've had 2presents, one from the j1 bball team and another from my small sis. That's all. Of course I can't show it out that I do want presents, but then, yar, quite sad. Empty handed after all.

Sometimes, when I keep thinking of these kind of stuff, I'd feel angry. Angry at myself and the rest of the world. Yar, that's how weird I am I guess. I don't have the guts to live for myself, yet I'm grumbling about it.

Anyway, I'd have 2 friends who have lost their grandpas recently. Hope that they take care and my condolences.

And Pauline mei, be happy!!!!!

Doesn't matter if I win, or the colour of my skin, cos the race is all about believing in yourself.
- I dream by Singapore Idol Winner Taufik

The swimming pool, from one end to the other, measures about 25m.
At one point, it's 2.4m deep, about 10m away, the ground ascends slowly until 1.4m.
This girl, she had an incident in an Olympic sized pool before.
She nearly drowned when she swam in the middle of the pool.
Nearly.
In that swimming pool, she decided not to go to the deep end at first.
The past is still in her head.
But the pool was small, there was only that much she could swim.
Stacy was scared.

How?

Ladies and Gentleman, it's about time I re-introduce the Lite Barb Girl, the so-called columnist who talks about the media, movies and other stuff that may or may not be of relevance.

By Lite Barb Girl
I was in my living room, when I decided to switch on the television. It was already 8pm, and on Channel 8 there was this glizty event I believe they call the STAR AWARDS. At first I didn't understand why they called it the STAR AWARDS. The awards don't look like STARS. The milky way perhaps? I wonder. Oh well, At least they didn't call it the "CURVED CRYSTAL SWORD TROPHY THINGY" AWARD, because that's what it damned looked like. Artistic though, I'd rather they have that thing then the STAR trophy back in 1999 (I believe). It was damn ugly and, I'm afraid sore losers would just steal one to commit suicide. Believe it or not, it looked like a 5-end pointed durian.

Anyway, I digressed too much. Now, this year, it was refreshing to see stars actually talking about wanting the awards for themselves. It was, amusing, funny and humourous. What wasn't refreshing- meaning: Stale was Phylis Quek winning the top ten most popular female artists awards. Wow, she has loads of fans, and by that I don't mean electrical ones. But, I can't even think of one drama serial she appeared in for this year. Erm.... er.... hmm... nope, still a blank.
I was devastated. Fiona Xie went home empty? Hello! I demand a recount.
I demand a recount.
I demand a recount...........

But then, ah, I am suddenly in love with a number, a 3-digit number that spells H-U-N-K. Not that numbers could spell, but anyway, Whaddayaknow! Qi YuWu the leading man is Top Ten. Oh! That smile could blind me from miles away. Oh!

Er... nevermind.

nothing that you confess, could make me love you less
- Girls Aloud's I'll stand by you

I'm sick.

No, not perverted sick. Literally sick. Fever, sore throat, runny and blocked nose, cough. And my hands are trembling, my head is woozy, I can't talk right. Heck, I can't talk left either.

The doctor gave me a whole lotta pills to pop. Woah, and one tiny weeny itsy bitsy pill that I'm supposed to consume "MAY CAUSE DROWSINESS". May is not the right word the pharmist should put in the inscription of the sticker describong the pill. Neither is it June, July or August. It's "YES, IT WILL CAUSE DROWSINESS, goddamnit!!"

I'm still woozy. Besides that, I'm still lazy, clever, beautiful and whatnot. But woozy, that's a terrible adjective. On it's own, it's already terrible. Most of my day today was spent lying on my bed, waiting for my mind to clear. (kinda like waiting to die huh? Touch wood) Oh well, I guess I need the rest, after such a hectic week.

The burning question would be, when can I friggin' go make my ic and ezlink card? See the teething flames? "Ahh... the question is burning!! Oh my god!!."

I did mention I was woozy,right?

Yenling, Gao Fei, WeiShan and Adeline came over to my house for a swim. And they brought a cake and some presents too!

Thank YOU, girls!!!!! Major surprise...:D...hehe

i'm getting tired.

and the bass keep runnin' runnin' and runnin' runnin' and runnin' runnin' and....
- Let's Get It Started ( or Let's Get Retarded) by Black Eyed Peace

I have a lot to say right now. Curses, cheers, crap. You name it, I will have something to say.

I curse that fella who took me and Charlene's wallets while we were in the toilet cubicles. I curse that he/she shall be struck by lightning. He/She made me feel like an idiot putting down the wallets without anyone to look after it. I curse him/her, but not before I admit that I was really dumb to put the wallets right there and then. Damn

It had to happen. While I was in OGL camp, already shagged and stoned. It HAD to happen. On the eve of my birthday. Man, that's really the worst present someone could ever bestow on me.

But on a brighter note, Hey~ It's my birthday today! Sadly, it felt indifferent to the other 364 days of the year. Of course, my friends were there, Aishah, Charlene, Shahirah, Shaz( my banana) and some other OGLs wished me happy birthday too. My group, namely HYDRO ( yeap, there's HYDRO, MISTRAL, AURA, COSMO and INFERNO) also sang me a happy birthday at breakfast. LinYing, Gek Eng, Linda, Shi Qi, Xiao Wei, Thank YOU!!!! Yenling, Eileen, Weishan, THANK YOU!!! Gwen... THANK YOU ALSO!!!

But no presents leh... Only got one dose of water from Aishah... And coins borrowed from her and Errol to take the bus home... No wait...

I've got the worst present, what more can I ask for?