Happy Teachers' Day
today was teachers' day celebrations! I was secretly excited because I can go back to Presbyterian High today. Yay! But then was a bit scared because Yishun Junior College was very lag, they got lessons till 11.30. I was worried I would be lonely back in school. So, early morning, the basketball girls were pia-ing the gifts for Miss Rivera. Yar, it's not something expensive, but then you've gotta admit, it's something unique. So, right before assembly, all of us chiong-ed to find Miss Rivera and gave her the gift. Hee... so heartwarming. Then we had to run to assembly, and I had to stand right behind in my class. My CT, Mr Tan Toh Hwee( whose baby photo was SUPER CUTE!!!) said thanks to me. Cos he saw my name scribbled on a piece of cardboard that was used to make the class' dedication.

Concert time!! And me, Gwen, Yanhui, Jasmine sat near the front. Angelina was also near, and we were like, crapping so much. Someone kept turning behind to look around. I enjoyed the "... dance with me, make me sway" that part.. and my Chem teacher can REALLY dance. Haha, chemistry will never be the same again!Tu pi, one pi, no-pine and Pork-u-pine went to give Miss Tan the card, we also gave Mr Goh a card. Hehe... nice nice... I pon-ed the LTC meeting. Mateen CMI, tell us got LTC meeting today, you think we will bother? Ok, it's not really about being bothered or not, I've done my job, not like some people who didn't even show up for another meeting with Mr Zaihan the other day.

Anyway, i went back to my Secondary School after that. LinYing was there! Hee... so happy. Saw Miss Yeo, Mr Thomas, Ms Lem, Mr Tan Chee Wee... and Shi Qi's best friend came too. Haha... after that, went shopping with Gek Eng and Andrea. We walked around J8 until there was nothing to walk. Haha, and Gek Eng got a cut on her knee, and the cut damn disgusting. She pasted tissue, then plaster, the tissue somemore stick to her wound. Haha, so disgusting. But it was so fun! Long time never crap with them already. Felt right at home with the both of them. And was so full eating their fries, had to hurry home after they've gone to do business.

I talked too much about people. One day, I'm gonna have to see a wall and bang my whole damn head into it. Gossiping, my guilty pleasure. And sometimes, you know too much things about someone. It feels so strange. I think my head is messed up.

Anyway, let's see what I've accomplished today. 3-30 to 7, basketball, basketball basketball. Legs were like lead. Heavy lead. Gwen, Yuen, Jas, Grace and Jocelyn came down as well. Today's training was solid. SUPER SOLID. 1st half i was in hell. 2nd half of the training suddenly made me very happy. Because i see BONDS. Teamwork. Laughter.

One quote by Deanna Tan
- Assholes walk around the earth in disguise
one of them ******s is Tan Choon Kai

Yesterday, the J1 econs-science cohort had to attend the "Young Entreprenuer's Conference". I went. I couldn't believe that I could sit through an hour's talk by Dr Finian Tan, who was a damn rich man. He was very charismatic on stage too. Everyone listened attentively. When the question and answer session came, we listened to his answers and he would talk about damn interesting stuff until I was like, Eh, what was his question again? But then the second half of the conference was different. The other speaker made us all wanna sleep!!!

After that me and my classmates went to KFC to eat. Haha, we ended up gossiping again, but we always gossip about the same old people so kinda sian already. I know gossiping is bad... but, some people are badder. Hehe.. Then I went to play basketball with Elizebeth. Got to know some stuff....that sometimes we shouldn't judge a book by its cover. Then by 4pm, i was damn tired and so went to BK to find Shaz they all. That was my day yesterday. How's yours?

Two Significant Things Today
1.Today's training was very fulfilling. I can see so much improvement in everyone. JueBing is so motivated, Chae Yun too, you can really see that her skills are improving. The rest too, even Yee Har learnt to throw at the extended hand when we ask for the ball. At the end, Miss Rivera gave us postcards. Inside, contained quotes and words of encouragement. Elizebeth suggested thanking her, but since we were keeping the equipment, everyone was scattered. However, when I told the rest the idea, we were outside the pe department in a flash. Then we all went into the PE department to look for Miss Rivera. I said, "1,2,3", then everyone said "THANK YOU MISS RIVERA". It was so touching, we are begining to look,feel like a team, and I think WE ARE A Team. That feeling of being bonded is quite overwhelming even though it's just a phrase that lasted about 3 seconds. After that, on MSN, Gwen told me how she felt about that training. To be able to hear someone tell me I am on the right track just make my heart feel warm and fuzzy. I was in doubt of my very own self, and this assurance came just at the right time. Thank you Gwen.

2. I told my papa "thank you" because everyday after night study, i would call him up and ask him to bring me home in his car. I grew up taking the train, the bus, never at all asking him to drive me home. Firstly it was because my mum didn't want that, she wants me to be independant, second i know my papa is a busy man. So, everytime i make a call to him, and everytime he came to pick me up, i feel so privilaged. I worry if I was of any inconvenience, but after my "thank you, and i hope that you don't find me troublesome", he said," Since when i said you were troublesome?" and he went on to say, " Time can be arranged to fit everyone's schedule." That made me so happy. I'm a silly little girl, arn't I? No, I'm my papa's daughter. At least he cares for me. Even if my brother gets most of his love, i don't care. Because, at least he cares.

the reason why i don't have a temper is because i'm don't want friendships to break down. But that doesn't mean i will let people climb over me.

Tan Jun Kai, you better watch out. You're gonna be so dead. Ass ass ass ass ass ass ass
1) Stupid VAIN POT. Your face look worse than shit. Your hair look like bird nest.
2) Don't think no one knows. You always go into the mirror to look at yourself. Conceited ass.
3) You think you have friends. In fact, no one in class like you AT ALL.

A S S H O L E
F* * * ing A S S H O L E

Past Till Present
Have you looked into someone eyes, and it showed you another person? One that you try so hard to forget, and found out that he's very much alive within your mind. That was what I've discovered. I looked at my classmate, and wished that it was him. I don't know, I thought I've long given up on him. But today, I felt sad, despondant. He's not anywhere near me. Does he even know me at all? 2years we were classmats, 2others as schoolmates, or what people call "HI BYE" friends. After 4whole years, why am I still thinking of him??

Being PErfect.
I have a friend who writes very neatly, so neatly that from afar, you'd think that it was typed out. Everytime, someone would think it was printed out. Her words were of a standard size, pattern, there wasn't any cancellation on the paper too. SO much that it looks flawless. However, one day, someone noted that there was correction fluid on the paper. That prompted me to say, "See, that's because no one is perfect."

No one is perfect. That's why pencils have erasers on top of them.
-Quote from somewhere...

tired...tomorrow maths common test..today take back trigo test paper, 12/25...die, must pass with flying colours tomorrow if not won't get the grade i want, but every question in the TYS i cannot do... die die die... today studied in school until 9 again, got free ride from charlene's mother... papa in malaysia.... today we were talking crap while studying... so funny sia... everything is so funny.... but got memorise formulas.. please let me pass with flying colours tomorrow.. pretty pretty please

slipped away
i feel that i have slipped away
thrown out, flown out
into yesterdays
i feel that i didn't neglect you
but then when you neglected me
i'm hurt, it's just like what they say
what goes around comes around
maybe that's the way

All that i can do now
i guess is wait and see
i saw how u were
i know you aint bluffing
when u went to the toilet straight
you said you won't die so easily,
cos you had to wait for her
well, all i can say is
she aint coming back
so as a fren, i'm here to apologise
to show some concern from another eye
to be the friend i wanna be
pls don't die on s20 and me

I feel so good. Hehe, first time that I reached home in like 10mins from school. All thanks to my papa. Heehee, so happy. He came to fetch me... muahahaha... I was in school for night study, yesterday and today both 9pm then stopped studying. But i think i damn slow when i study...

Gwen! I don't care, one day i'm gonna make u cry... haha... muahahaha....

What is in a singaporean
we have to go on a journey to find out
but first must buy ez link
cos then can take bus and mrt
no, i dun want to take cab i not that rich
somemore must pay extra for erp
so sit ourselves in bus 56, will take u thru the garden state
it will pass the durian, we'd rather call it that than the espla-nade
some people say the last syllable is nard, but who the hell are we to judge
see the skyline full of buildings, trademarks atop the rainbow's dream
but we still haven fully explored, this place we call singapore.....

"DIAO".....

today is my BEST FRIEND"S BIRTHDAY!!! HAHA, who else but Singapore!!! HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO ALL MY FRIENDS!

But today so weird, cos I did PW today. Find me someplace where people do PROJECT WORK on National Day? It was so boring, i think i'm the slacker of the group,no... I AM the slacker of the group. Silas and Alvin so enthu one, whatever they discussed i catch no ball. Well, at least Charlene organises the group. What do I do? Tell jokes and crap. Oh boy, haiz... Hmm, after PW I headed down to Bugis with Charlene Sivalingam to meet Jasmine Wong. I was like wearing so casual and going to Bugis, haiyoh... never wear nice nice lor. Then there was this Christain group who talked about Christ and all that. I'm so curious, why do they always target me? Last year, last last year, it was the same thing. Is this this a coincidence or...?? Haiz, ask me about Noah's Ark, Jesus Christ, I can agar agar tell you all about their stories. But Buddhism? I know nuts about it. Well, of course it might have been because of my kindergarden, primary and secondary school days. Everyday there's devotion, there's prayer. Now it ends with "Have a nice day". It's been 13years of christian education and suddenly you don't feel the closure of the assembly. Oh well, F>R>I.E>N>DS are cuming...think about it later

Wow. A 2hours wait just for 5minutes of fireballs and ashes flying into your face is totally worth it. The fireworks was absolutely stunning! Plus, we've got the best seats, right in front of the sea, all thanks to Grace's friends. Thank you, Grace's friends!

Hmm, at 3pm went to meet Charlene Su at Junction 8 and we spontanously went to watch "THE VILLAGE". It was a bit slow in the begining, but things got excited near the end. I wasn't really scared because Sinting told me the ending what are the creatures lurking. However, the ending wasn't what i had expected, it was a huge twist in itself that blew my mind away. M. Night Shyamalan is a genuis. And when he cameo-ed, the stupid theatre had to spoil itself and no sound was heard for the 5minutes he was on. Damn. While, the Village is a love story, a story of courage and most of all, of human pureness and the desire for innocence. Everything in the village is untouched by the evils of mankind, and that twist has proved that it is not by fate that it had been maintain. Thumbs up to Joaquin Phoenix, he was so intense. Adrain Brody too, put up a very endearing show. However, I still like The Sixth Sense more.

Well, at 6, we rushed off to City Hall. The MRT was packed like sardines. Some auntie pushed me so much. What the? The Esplanade was jammed packed, but we had such good view. We were all singing and crapping. I brought my videocam, and shot the whole thing down. SO beautiful. But Renee was too late, by the time she reached Suntec, it was over. Oh well...

So nice.... I wanna do this again, but can't. Mama won't let me go.

Yesterday night, i was sleeping so soundly, but heard my phone rang so had to get out of my cosy bed. It was Simon. Aiyoh.. he wanted me to ask Charlene Sivalingam whether she going to watch fireworks with LTC anot. So, I had to call up Charlene. When i asked her, she said she was talking to him online. I DIAO-ED!! Wah lau, why cannot ask her straight ah? She isn't going in the end, because i not going with LTC. When i went back to bed, i couldn't sleep... haiz. Maybe I was too excited about today. I think it's gonna be spectacular. Can't wait till 3pm.

I got a new nickname for my computer. "Shitty Comp." Stupid idiotic computer. I go into MSN for 10 mins, will get d/c 3times a minute. Grr... Stupid shit. And just now kena scolded by my mummy. Haiz, why does she keeping scolding... when she scolds, it's like a bullet going into my head and out again and in again. Argh.

Hmm, guess it's still quite early in the morning now. Got nothing to do.... YaWnZ.

Today, woke up at 12pm, found out that Charlene Sivalingam woke up earlier than me. First time sia. Then had to hurry up cos she's all ready. We went to BK kovan to study, and i called simon along. Haha, Simon must be damn happy. Tomorrow was going to watch fireworks with LTC people, but then in the end, now going to watch with Gwen and Charlene Su. A bit bad, but both groups are fun. Kept thinking how fun it will be if it was with ShiQi, GekEng, Andrea, Steph. How fun would it be if the whole gang was there, my best friend was there. I guess it's my fault. I procrastinated. I should have propose this outing to them long time ago...

Fireworks is something special. I hope to be watching it with so many people who'd made my life special. At least i'll be with two(or three if yuen cums) but we'll still all be under the same sky.

haiz.. gekeng... please don't call me xi xin yan jiu. I don't know, i mean, i did tell you that i want to go watch fireworks on sunday, and maybe i didn't specify, but i was waiting for you guys to tell me that yar, you guys wanna go too. I would pang seh anyone for you guys, please believe me in that. It's just that... so much stuff has been going on, that i tend to overlook some things in life. I mean, i don't know what to say... gekeng... you and the rest are my best pals. I think i'm being too sensitive here, but that's just me. I'm sure you're joking, but somehow, it affected me. Well....

Today national day celebrations, I sang in the hall so loudly with Aishah, Shahirah, Charlene and Shaz, just let myself go... until suddenly Yuen Xin popped out of nowhere with something. And Gwen and Ena and YanHui were nearby and they urged me not to sing. But all the more i sang. Hee... Anyway, after the celebrations and while walking towards LT5 for Chemistry lecture, I read the letter. ".....cos we will haunt you" she wrote. That part i was really touched. And everything else in that letter.

After Chemistry lecture, I was supposed to go for Mrs Kok lunchtreat but in the end, when to Mcdonalds with my classmates to have lunch. I saw Charlene aka Ms Su and we chatted for a well. Couldn't go for breakfast with Gwen, Yuen they all because of Chemistry Lecture. And worse, after lunch, there was Chemistry tutorial at 1pm. From 1-2pm, didn't really pay attention because I was talking to Shaz about stuff. Then after all that went to Sivalingam Charlene house to watch tv and do Project Work. Her Mr Banana and Mr Tomato so cute. Haha, but her whole face was like "Diao" when i started playing with Mr Banana and Mr Tomato. I made them go into a fight and she was like, Deanna, i think u should bring your videocam, so i can film how bo liao u are. Haha :P....

Now just staring at the computer. Finished a letter for my seniors. Must remember to pass to them on Wednesday. Hopefully they like the poem i did....

Ok, time to sleep... GEK ENG ANDREA SQ!!! Sunday afternoon go out leh....

Yuen! Thank you for your letter. Touched me so much that..... that...i wanted to....

And the heart...SO CUTE!!! THANKS SO MUCH!

When i got into MSN just now, i tried to change my friggin' nick because it has become super inappropriate. But I keep d/c-ing so ferget it. Argh. Feeling super hungry now. Didn't eat much at Farewell today, all because no appetite because looking at people acting.

Today is BASKETBALL FAREWELL! I was stressed because i hope for it to go smoothly. Luckily it did. But at first, the seniors started scolding each other, and i feared that something had happened. I was thinking, why now? It's super inappropriate. Then i thought i saw HuiLi laughed sneakily to herself after shouting at YanHui, who in turn shouted back. Huili did laugh sneakily, for Carmen told me what she think. Soon, I knew what they were up to. Joan glanced at me, and HuiLi shouted extra loudly when i'm near. All I can say is that YanHui should win the best actress award. In the end, when Joan called for a meeting, and they surrounded us with water bottles in tow, whatever Joan said was never registered in my head. True enough, Carmen was the smart one. Then we were like attacking each other with water like there's no tomorrow. Super fun! And that little chat at the end was the best. J2s are the best.

Oscars:
Best Actress: YanHui for looking like she's crying everytime they shouted here and there
Best Supporting Actress: Jasmine/Yuen... it's a tie. The two looked so pissed.

Razzies:
Worst Actress: HuiLi, since when she shouts when she's angry?
Worst supporting actress: Yan Sze/ Grace. "U think you very cool walking one round?"was what Grace said. I don't think Yan Sze would want to be fighting with the people she haven't seen in a few months.
Worst Extra: Renee/ Ruiyi. Renee laughed so loud, we could hear her giggle. I saw Ruiyi laughing when Jocelyn "cried". Ena oso lor.

Well, whatever it is, they still ROCK.

I
AM
Finally
BACK!!!!!
Muahahahaha!!!I'm back. I'm back I'm back online! Well, not quite. I can go to websites now but the Wondows Messenger cannot work. Shitty computer. I finally found the installation CD for my infra red thingy...lalala...so sorry that i couldn't blog for so long. But now...hahahaha!!! So excited to be back sia.